A new beginning

Ive decided it was time for me to have a new beginning....I've lived thru some really rough things in my 41 years....Ive been abused physically, emotionally, mentally, and sexually all by people that I was suppose to believe in and trust...count on to be there for me and with me. It started out when I was a child and followed me thru my adult hood. Ive tried to bury it and pretend that it wasnt there but the hurt one carries when they have gone thru so much tends to poke its ugly head out alot..and causes you to start living a life where you dont trust in anyone...you feel that no one is actually able to be honest or truthful....Im a mom of 3 boys, and Ive done everything in my power to raise my boys to be good honest..loving caring men..as you know from my post...I have 2 in college (19 and 21) and one still at home (11) and I am so very proud of them and I know without a doubt that regardless of what Ive been thru in life I have been an excellent mom!!! But inside of me I have still held on to all the hurt Ive gone thru in this life. Lately Ive been thinking what if I had the ability to bounce back from whatever hardship has come my way? What if I had the ability to look at every misfortune, as an opportunity to grow into a stronger, more resilient human being? Have you ever wondered why it is that some people can bounce back so quickly from a negative life experience, while others dwell upon the negative experience for years to come? It's called the ability to be resilient.
Resiliency is defined as the following:
1. Springing back; rebounding.
2. Returning to the original form or position after being bent, compressed, or stretched.
3. Recovering readily from illness, depression, adversity, or the like; buoyant.

After years of living life trying to just find some sort of happiness out there. I have felt that I have always given so much of myself to others only to be let down and crushed in so many ways by those people. I have done lots of thinking and I have decided that each and every person does have the ability to live a resilient life. You can be positive, proactive, healthy, happy and live a life with positive meaning, it is now my mission to learn as much as I can about how to live my life to the fullest and in the most resilient manner possible. Im only given one life...and its going to be way too short to sit around and worry about the negative that others want to try to inflict upon me. They can only hurt me if I allow them to hurt me...and guess what Im done allowing that to happen....this is my life and Im ready to start living it!!!!!