Total Pageviews

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

What about ME 4 Wednesday

As you know from my Monday post ..I'm trying to deal with something that happened over the week-end that hurt me...though I'm doing much better than I was , I am still hurting I really cant think of much to post for today that would be the upbeat things I usually try to post. I feel broken inside..and its making me feel really sad....that's what breaking someones trust does to you...and honestly it truly sucks. I put ALOT into TRUST...its not something that comes easy for me so once I trust you its important for me that you don't break that.

The truth may hurt me...but lies kill me inside

Perfect song for the moment

*Just some thoughts*

*Hold your heart with a gentle strong embrace.

* Realize that what you hold in those hands is sacred and one of the greatest gifts you can give any individual.

* Do not become hard to love...and do not be afraid to love hard

* Remember that people can only hurt you as much as you let them

* The only person that can fix you is you

* Even though your head keeps you focused, your heart keeps you in touch

* Sometimes you have to remind your heart that just because it feels good, doesn't mean it is good for you

* Do not underestimate are more resilient than you think

* Let the scars on your heart that others have left behind remind you of how strong you really are

* Never lose the love you have inside because of someone elses mistake

* Know that it's okay to lose yourself in love, just don't lose yourself

* Remember that barriers keep people out, while boundaries just remind people what is acceptable and what is unacceptable


Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Monday, October 26, 2009

Music 4 Monday

Usually on Mondays I just post the video and don't really write much about why I picked that song....Today is a little different..I had one of those week-ends where something happened that at the moment felt like it turned my whole world upside down. It made me question everything that I had believed in, and everyone that I trust. (which considering the life Ive had that list is pretty small) I went thru alot of emotions over the week-end, everything from heartbroken, to really mad, and it left me feeling sick and numb inside. It was one of those times where I couldn't help but ask why??? Why do things have to happen like this??? I'm a good person,but why do people hurt me like its no big deal???? I actually found myself saying a couple times over the week-end I just want something or someone to believe in......and that is why I picked this song for kind of goes with my mood. Sure things got worked out over the week-end and I don't feel as horrible as I did..but once you hurt someone, or break the takes more than just a "I'm sorry" to make it feel takes time..and it truly takes giving the person something to believe in.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Favorite 4 Friday

My favorite for today is...YOU, all my online friends...I know that for most of us we will never have more than the comments we leave for each other on here...and for a few of us we have taken it further and sent emails to each other, and for a few more we have even exchanged numbers/addresses and have talked over the phone and sent cards and gifts to each other in the mail, and maybe if the time comes things will work out for a couple of us to actually meet face to face one day, for one of us thats already happened! Some of you have become really special to me and I want to thank you for your friendship, for encouraging me, for genuinely caring about me, and even for taking the time talking to me. Even though you are "online" friends, it is, to me, a real friendship, and I just wanted you to know, I think you guys are AWESOME!
I have come to really enjoy reading your blogs and getting to know you guys a little more each day,you have made me laugh and sometimes made me shed a tear. You guys have made me stop and think about things and even sometimes see things in a different way. I notice when you haven't been around and I hope that you and your family are ok. I always look forward to not just your post but even the comments that you leave for me, or the email you might send me to tell me something you didn't want to blast out there for everyone to see. You guys and you know who you are have become a friend to me and I value my friendships, and that is why YOU are my FAVORITE for today!!!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

What about me 4 Wednesday

Thats a great theme for today....its kind of what Ive been thinking the last few nights at about 3 in the morning, as Im waking from what seemed to be a nice restful nights sleep just to look over at the clock and see that I still have 3 hours I could be sleeping...but I just lay there...tossing and turning...trying to find a comfortable position and suddenly no position feels comfortable!!! Im trying to clear my mind of anything and everything...repeating over and over again just go to sleep if Im going to put myself into some kind of trance or the last few nights Ive most definitely been feeling the what about me feeling....why cant I just stay asleep...why do I keep waking up at 3 in the morning. Yesterday I was blessed with a horrible headache which probably had to do with my lack of sleep lately....and thats just not much fun trying to take care of kiddos while your head is throbbing!!!! I dont have one today...or at least not yet (knocking on wood) but man am I tired!!!

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Monday, October 19, 2009

2 hours and 45 minutes.......

If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes taking a nap..Id feel well rested
If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes watching a good movie..Id think that was worth it
If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes talking with an old friend...Id feel like we got caught up on things
If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes playing with my nephew..Id be happy inside
If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes with my older boys who are away to college...Id be thankful for every minute
If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes cleaning my house..Id feel like something finally got accomplished around here!
If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes getting my grove on with my Joshy...Id feel like ok well I wont go there

BUT instead I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes in WALMART waiting for their tire and lube guys to put ONE I repeat ONE new tire on our Grand am....this is by far one of the most ridiculous things I think we have experienced...this is what these guys do every day...after all this is their JOB....oh and it gets better...after about an hour and a half one of the guys say to Josh I dont think this is going to work..Josh asked why and so the guy takes Josh out to the garage area and proceeds to fumble thru what ever it was he was trying to say when Josh noticed they actually had the wrong tire ...I repeat the WRONG tire for our car...they had not tried putting it on yet...I have no idea what they had been doing for the last hour and a half...I should tell you their was only one car in front of us when we got there and they were just getting done with it so the wait wasnt for another vehicle...this was for our vehicle!!!! So anyway by this time Josh is livid and I cant say I blame him....I'm tired and I have spent way too much time in Walmart already...after all I had already been there before doing my shopping!!!! So they were suppose to actually rotate two of the tires but by this time Josh is just done and tells them to put the damn RIGHT tire on and be done!!! So finally 2 hours and 45 minutes after we showed up there we are finally driving away with ONE new tire!!! We actually need to get all new tires but for our little car the cheapest tire you can get is $115 and right before Christmas that's just not going to we replaced the one that was starting to split and will make do with the others for now...and God forbid we have to go back there to replace the other 3 after Christmas!!!! Can you imagine..we might as well put up a tent and blow up some air mattresses and just camp out!!!

Music 4 Monday

Ok lets be honest many of us copied that look??

* I know I did...I even used to practice her moves until I got them down pat*

Friday, October 16, 2009

Favorite 4 my Friday

My favorite for today "Joshy"

We've been together for almost 3 years now..and it certainly hasn't always been easy. We were pretty much complete opposites, who had both been thru horrible marriages and had major scars from them. It most definitely didnt make for a good way to start out in a relationship, but here we are 3 years later and we both have grown and learned so much from each other. I wouldn't change a thing. I truly feel in my heart that he was meant to find me and that we are meant to be together. Now if you would of asked me that 3 years ago or even 2 years ago I wouldn't of had the same response. But I honestly feel that way now and thats why he is my favorite.....I thank him for being so patient with me...I had been in 2 abusive marriages before he came into my life and so trust was not something that came easy for me...but he stood by my side and was determined to show me that I could trust him..and I will be forever grateful for that. For him he had to deal with alot in his past too but one thing that hurt him bad was being cheated I had to show him that he could trust and believe in I said it wasnt an easy road for us but we traveled it and we are now on the road of happiness..sure we hit bumps along the way, but its how we handle those bumps now that makes all the difference in the world.

Everyday I get more afraid
Of giving my heart away
Scared of what love will bring
Too nervous to hear the words you’ll say
I find myself lost in you
Not sure if I want to be
I see the looks that you give
And wonder what you see in me
I don’t want my heart broken
But I am so in love
I can’t seem to give up
A guy sent from above
So I’m gonna trust you
Please don’t let me down
For I am giving you a chance
To turn my life around
Don’t take it for granted
‘Cause it might not last long
I have weak thoughts
And my heart isn’t too strong
I’m putting my life in your hands
Now it’s all up to you
I look forward to the places we go
And the things we’ll be put through
But remember that I’m vulnerable
And I can’t stand to be hurt
I want to be at the top of your list
But I don’t have to be first
Believe me when I tell you
That I love you with all my heart
That I’m here for you forever and always
Just like I was at the start.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Light your candles tonight in memory of ALL babies gone too soon!!!

There are so many of us that have experienced the loss of a baby whether it was due to still born, miscarriage, or some other reason. On October 17th 2007 I should of had a beautiful addition to our family...but I lost it due to a miscarriage months before.

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day is to promote Support, Education and Awareness for grieving parents worldwide.

Too many families grieve in silence, sometimes never coming to terms with their loss. Their goal is to help families live with their loss, not "get over" their loss.

Thought 4 Thursday

There may be days

when you get up in the morning
and things aren't the way
you had hoped they would be.


That's when you have to
tell yourself that things will get better.
There are times when people
disappoint you and let you down.


But those are the times
when you must remind yourself
to trust your own judgments and opinions,
to keep your life focused on believing in yourself.


There will be challenges to face
and changes to make in your life,
and it is up to you to accept them.


Constantly keep yourself headed
in the right direction for you.
It may not be easy at times,
but in those times of struggle
you will find a stronger sense of who you are.


So when the days come that are filled
with frustration and unexpected responsibilities,
remember to believe in yourself
and all you want your life to be.


Because the challenges and changes
will only help you to find the goals
that you know are meant to come true for you.


Keep Believing in You!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

What about me 4 Wednesday

“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.”

*this is a Virginia Satir quote...and I think its awesome...
it wraps it up for all of us don't you think?*

Monday, October 12, 2009

Where did Fall go???

This is what we woke up to on Saturday morning!!!! We got a good 3 inches of snow ....and my middle son that lives 50 miles to the west of us got over a foot of snow!!!! I don't know what is up with mother nature...but I sure would have like to of enjoyed some of the Fall season before the snow made its appearance!!!

Music 4 Monday

I'm in the mood for some Goo Goo Dolls!!!!

Friday, October 9, 2009


It is not so much the example of others we imitate as the reflection of ourselves in their eyes and the echo of ourselves in their words.
~Eric Hoffer~

Each of us is here for a brief sojourn; for what purpose he knows not, though he senses it. But without deeper reflection one knows from daily life that one exists for other people.
~Albert Einstein~

Knowing others is wisdom, knowing yourself is enlightenment.
~Lao Tzu~

Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.
~George Bernard Shaw~

Look within!... The secret is inside you

Most true happiness comes from one's inner life, from the disposition of the mind and soul. Admittedly, a good inner life is difficult to achieve, especially in these trying times. It takes reflection and contemplation and self-discipline.
~William L Shirer~

One of the greatest moments in anybody's developing experience is when he no longer tries to hide from himself but determines to get acquainted with himself as he really is.
~Norman Vincent Peale~

Seeing within changes one's outer vision.
~Joseph Chilton Pearce~

The only service a friend can really render is to keep up your courage by holding up to you a mirror in which you can see a noble image of yourself.
~George Bernard Shaw~

The stories of past courage... can offer hope, they can provide inspiration. But they cannot supply courage itself. For this each man must look into his own soul
~John F. Kennedy~

The world is a looking glass and gives back to every man the reflection of his own face.
~William M. Thackeray~

I think its important for each one of us to be someone that when we look at our self in the mirror we are proud of the person looking back at us

Life is hard and sometimes it feels like it hands us more than we can handle..but in the end every thing we go thru is a learning experience sometimes we walk away learning more about someone else and sometimes the learning experience is for our self. We can find strength in ourselves at times we didn't think we had any at the world we live in where every time you turn on your tv or pick up a newspaper it is filled with all the bad that's going on around us its important for us to find some good...and that starts by looking at our self and asking do I like what I see? Do I like me? The person I am? What can I do to make a difference in someones life..maybe its your own life or maybe its someone you know , maybe its the person standing on the street corner feeling like he's got nothing to live for, and a simple smile and a hello could make all the difference. So look at your reflection and ask yourself do I like that person looking back at me...if not the only person that can change that is YOU!

Favorite 4 Friday

Being from Nebraska we dont have alot in the way of BIG sports to be a fan of from our state...not like alot of the the other states who have Pro and such so for those of us living in the Cornhusker state...our HUSKER football is kind of a big deal...and Im sure most of you know we have had a few bad years lately....but we are starting to get a glimpse of hope for ours guys once again...and last nights game was a big win for us...we played Mizzou(Missouri) and we won...after last years game where they stomped us to the ground we really needed this!!! So my FAVORITE for this Friday is the score of last nights game

27 - 12


huskers_gel_logo_1200x800.jpg image by GenieLee1996

Wednesday, October 7, 2009


Im a BIG Tony Stewart fan...what you dont know who Tony Stewart is???? He's the driver of number 14 for NASCAR...and I've been a fan of his for a very looooong time so when I seen this "hump day" comment with my man on it I just had to post "hump day" just got better!!!

I know you are loving this one Tom...hehe (he's a Jimmy Johnson fan)

What about ME Wednesday

This morning while I was doing one of the things I do every morning it got me to thinking...I wonder how many people are as anal about this as I am? Every morning before my day gets started I have to make the bed...I just can not stand crawling into bed at night when the bed has been left a mess all I tighten the sheets and make the bed look all pretty each and every morning...yes Im one that has all the extra pillows thrown on my bed too just to make it look gives me a good feeling when I walk into the room and see the bed all made with all the extras on its a piece of art or something....and then to pull the blankets back at night and crawl in feels so much better then if everything was left wrinkled all day now I want to know what about you

Do you make your bed each morning?

or do you just get out and go?

Monday, October 5, 2009

Only 80 days til......

80 Days,
until Christmas of '2009

But then who's counting??

I know its only just fall but here in Nebraska its been so cold we actually had to crank on the heat!!! Its been in the 40's and 50's here with rain and wind...and now they are talking about the week-end its only going to be in the 40's with lows in the 20's are you kidding me??? I think we missed Fall and went right for Winter!!! And thats what got me to thinking about Christmas time...and I was wondering if any of you have started your shopping yet??? I say every year Im going to start early and every year I start about the same time..sometime after Thanksgiving...but I did it this year!!! I actually got started already!!! So thats my question for you start your shopping early and if so how early?? Or are you one of those last minute shoppers???? Do you like it when people give you a list or you would rather just wing it and get them something on your own??

Dont forget you can visit our store and use code "blog5" and get an extra 5% off of ANYTHING!!! We add items every week so keep checking back!!!

Music 4 Monday

I realize this might come as a surprise to some of you ..but Im a big Kid Rock fan....I really like most of his music some of it is kind of naughty, some of it is just really rockin,...and well not something everyone can enjoy....but here is one of his more mellow ones....and I love it

And here is another mellow one for you to enjoy...

And here's a taste of the other side of Kid Rock (WARNING:do not play if you have kids around!!)

Friday, October 2, 2009

I did...did you???

Here is yet ANOTHER way to spread the word about breast cancer awareness...its a fun way to do it ...thanks to my bloggy buddy Samsmama she told me about this and so I had to go check it out.....go there ,find mine and leave a comment on there. Though its a serious subject we can also find fun ways to spread the word!!! Click here to find mine and leave a comment and even to make your own!!!

Favorite 4 Friday

I don't have to work today....that's right I get a loooooong week-end.....and that is my FAVORITE kind of week-end...a LONG one!!!!!

I have things I could fill my day with while Devin is at school and Josh is at work....but guess what I dont really feel like doing any of them I feel like just being LAZY that wrong of me???

Is it wrong of me to not really care, if its wrong of me to be lazy today?? WTF??? Did that even make any sense???? (and no I dont actually say wtf...I just thought it was cool I could type it and not have to say it....hehe)

You see why I need a LAZY day....I need a day to de-clutter my my body...and rejuvenate my soul!!

Some times peace and quiet the best time ever!!!

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Thought 4 Thursday

Some things to think about....

An estimated 192,370 new cases of invasive breast cancer will occur among women in the United States during 2009

And an estimated 40,170 women will die from breast cancer

Also, about 1,910 men will be diagnosed and 440 men will die of breast cancer during 2009 in the United States

In addition to invasive breast cancer, an estimated 62,280 new cases of in situ breast cancer will occur among women in 2009

(facts copied from this site


Click HERE for events happening all month long in different areas to help support awareness

Click HERE to read more information on the Susan G. Komen Foundation

Click HERE to read some really inspirational cancer survivor stories and to order some PINK things

Check the items that you buy, so many products donate a portion of their sales to Breast Cancer Research during the month of October....heres a list of just SOME

M&M'S....In 2009, Susan G. Komen for the Cure is honored to continue its partnership with Mars Snackfood, US, LLC. From August 15 through October 31, Mars will once again sell specially marked bags of dark pink and light pink M&M'S® Brand chocolate candies in grocery and retail outlets throughout the nation. In conjunction with this program, they will make a guaranteed donation of $500,000 to Komen for the Cure

Pandora Jewelry....Susan G. Komen for the Cure is proud to partner with Pandora Jewelry as the beneficiary from the sale of a specially designed pink ribbon beads in sterling silver and 14 karat gold to support the promise to save lives and end breast cancer forever. From January 1 through December 31, 2009, Pandora will create a special pink ribbon bead to benefit Komen for the Cure and will make a minimum guaranteed donation of $100,000. The bead will be available through at Pandora stores and through jewelry and specialty gift stores.

Evian...In 2009 Evian® Natural Spring Water is pleased to continue this mission by partnering with Susan G. Komen for the Cure in the efforts to support the fight against breast cancer. "Evian is proud to donate $.60 per specially marked 6pks of 1L and 500mL water bottles with a minimum donation of $100,000 up to $150,000 in 2009.

Purina Cat Chow...Susan G. Komen for the Cure is proud to be the beneficiary of the Purina Cat Chow sales program. From September 1 through December 31, 2009, specially marked packages of Purina Cat Chow will be sold in retail stores nationwide to benefit Komen for the Cure. Purina will donate $200,000 to Susan G. Komen for the Cure in connection with this program..PLUS In addition, individuals will have the opportunity starting September 1, 2009 to go online at and enter their names and complete a brief breast cancer awareness survey. Purina will donate $1 for each survey completed online, up to $125,000. Customers will also have the opportunity to purchase a resealable cat food container on the web site and Purina will donate $3 per container, up to $25,000. An additional component to the online efforts will include a photo mosaic upload of consumers and their cats, which will generate a $1 per upload donation, up to $10,000.

Yoplait..Yoplait conducts the highly successful Save Lids to Save Lives® program, which takes place during September and October each year. For each pink lid mailed in by customers, Yoplait will donate 10 cents to Komen with a guaranteed donation of $500,000 up $1.5 million.

New Balance Athletic Shoe..New Balance will be designing a special edition 993 Commemorative running shoe during this 20th anniversary year. The special edition 993, an all pink suede shoe, features the Komen for the Cure® pink ribbon, an insert adorned with an anniversary logo denoting the twenty-year partnership and a hangtag that details New Balance’s commitment to Komen for the Cure®. All special edition 993s will be manufactured in the U.S. and distributed in a new pink and black anniversary box with matching tissue paper, all featuring the Komen pink ribbon. The box’s inside cover explains additional information about New Balance’s relationship with Komen. n 2009, New Balance will donate up to $1million (with a guaranteed minimum donation of $500,000) supporting Susan G Komen for the Cure through the proceeds of the Lace Up for the Cure® Collection.

Click HERE and any beauty item you purchase with the pink cancer seal they donate a portion to help survivors of cancer.

Avon..has a few items that they donate a portion of each sale towards research

VAIO LAPTOP...created a PINK laptop The thin-and-light mobile masterpiece features an array of entertainment and design extras. $75 from each purchase benefits the Breast Cancer Research Foundaion. Available at SonyStyle retail locations

Swiffer...For the first time ever, the Swiffer brand is trading in its traditional green for pink this October, as part of a P&G-wide effort to raise funds for the National Breast Cancer Foundation and encourage early breast cancer detection. Available at mass merchandise and grocery retailers nationwide in September.

ARCHIPELAGO BOTANICALS RIBBONS OF LOVE CANDLE...This Archipelago Botancials Ribbons of Love fragrance candle is a blend of Pink Grapefruit, Clementine, and Pomelo designed by Archipelago staff whose lives have been touched by breast cancer. 40% of profits benefit City of Hope. Available at Nordstrom and Bloomingdale's.

CANON CAMERA PACK...Canon is fighting breast cancer through the sale of their special edition bundle kits. Each kit includes a pink PowerShot SD1100 IS Digital ELP camera, a pink SELPHY CP760 compact photo printer, a pink ribbon charm, and a Mammography Reminder Magnet. In the month of October, Canon will donate $150,000 to American Cancer Society

BELKIN SPORT ARMBAND...This slim, lightweight, and stretchable neoprene Belkin armband holds your iPod Nano and includes a pocket for keys or earbuds. $2.50 from each sale benefits Susan G. Komen for the Cure

AVEDA HAND RELIEF...A rich hand creme that helps soften and smooth hands while diminishing the visible signs of aging, Hand Relief has remained an Aveda top seller since its launch in 1998. $4 from each sale benefits the Breast Cancer Research Foundation. Available at

PIER 1 CANDLE....This floral blossom filled candle from Pier 1 features their exclusive Floral Blossom fragrance and comes in a frosted glass holder with a flocked flower design. Pink ribbon pin is also included. 25% of the purchase price of each candle benefits Komen for the Cure. Available at all Pier 1 Imports stores.

DOVE PROMISES OF HOPE CHOCOLATE...Indulge your sweet tooth with DOVE Promises of Hope chocolate. The inside of each chocolate wrapper will feature an inspirational message from a breast cancer survivor. $250,000 will be donated to Susan G. Komen for the Cure. Available in select retail stores.

ELF PINK KISS LIP GLOSS...This Super Glossy SPF 15 formula fights environmental damage while leaving your lips with a healthy glossy glow. The delicious flavor and sweet scent will leave you licking your lips in delight! The perfect on the go tube that is mess proof for anywhere and anytime! 100% of proceeds from e.l.f's gloss in Pink Kiss will benefit the Breast Cancer Research Foundation. Available at

If you look you will find that there are many ways that you can help make a watch for
PINK this month...and remember we are all touched by this disease.