Thought 4 Thursday

What about ME 4 Wednesday

As you know from my Monday post ..I'm trying to deal with something that happened over the week-end that hurt me...though I'm doing much better than I was , I am still hurting inside...so I really cant think of much to post for today that would be the upbeat things I usually try to post. I feel broken inside..and its making me feel really sad....that's what breaking someones trust does to you...and honestly it truly sucks. I put ALOT into TRUST...its not something that comes easy for me so once I trust you its important for me that you don't break that.

The truth may hurt me...but lies kill me inside



Perfect song for the moment

*Just some thoughts*

*Hold your heart with a gentle strong embrace.

* Realize that what you hold in those hands is sacred and one of the greatest gifts you can give any individual.

* Do not become hard to love...and do not be afraid to love hard

* Remember that people can only hurt you as much as you let them

* The only person that can fix you is you

* Even though your head keeps you focused, your heart keeps you in touch

* Sometimes you have to remind your heart that just because it feels good, doesn't mean it is good for you

* Do not underestimate yourself...you are more resilient than you think

* Let the scars on your heart that others have left behind remind you of how strong you really are

* Never lose the love you have inside because of someone elses mistake

* Know that it's okay to lose yourself in love, just don't lose yourself

* Remember that barriers keep people out, while boundaries just remind people what is acceptable and what is unacceptable

~ALWAYS REMEMBER...TO LOVE YOU FIRST ~

Question 4 you?!?!

What is the strongest opinion you hold?

Toon 4 Tuesday

Music 4 Monday

Usually on Mondays I just post the video and don't really write much about why I picked that song....Today is a little different..I had one of those week-ends where something happened that at the moment felt like it turned my whole world upside down. It made me question everything that I had believed in, and everyone that I trust. (which considering the life Ive had that list is pretty small) I went thru alot of emotions over the week-end, everything from heartbroken, to really mad, and it left me feeling sick and numb inside. It was one of those times where I couldn't help but ask why??? Why do things have to happen like this??? I'm a good person,but why do people hurt me like its no big deal???? I actually found myself saying a couple times over the week-end I just want something or someone to believe in......and that is why I picked this song for today...it kind of goes with my mood. Sure things got worked out over the week-end and I don't feel as horrible as I did..but once you hurt someone, or break the trust..it takes more than just a "I'm sorry" to make it feel better....it takes time..and it truly takes giving the person something to believe in.

Favorite 4 Friday

My favorite for today is...YOU, all my online friends...I know that for most of us we will never have more than the comments we leave for each other on here...and for a few of us we have taken it further and sent emails to each other, and for a few more we have even exchanged numbers/addresses and have talked over the phone and sent cards and gifts to each other in the mail, and maybe if the time comes things will work out for a couple of us to actually meet face to face one day, for one of us thats already happened! Some of you have become really special to me and I want to thank you for your friendship, for encouraging me, for genuinely caring about me, and even for taking the time talking to me. Even though you are "online" friends, it is, to me, a real friendship, and I just wanted you to know, I think you guys are AWESOME!
I have come to really enjoy reading your blogs and getting to know you guys a little more each day,you have made me laugh and sometimes made me shed a tear. You guys have made me stop and think about things and even sometimes see things in a different way. I notice when you haven't been around and I hope that you and your family are ok. I always look forward to not just your post but even the comments that you leave for me, or the email you might send me to tell me something you didn't want to blast out there for everyone to see. You guys and you know who you are have become a friend to me and I value my friendships, and that is why YOU are my FAVORITE for today!!!

Another thought 4 Thursday

Thought 4 Thursday

What about me 4 Wednesday

Thats a great theme for today....its kind of what Ive been thinking the last few nights at about 3 in the morning, as Im waking from what seemed to be a nice restful nights sleep just to look over at the clock and see that I still have 3 hours I could be sleeping...but I just lay there...tossing and turning...trying to find a comfortable position and suddenly no position feels comfortable!!! Im trying to clear my mind of anything and everything...repeating over and over again just go to sleep Dena..as if Im going to put myself into some kind of trance or something....so the last few nights Ive most definitely been feeling the what about me feeling....why cant I just stay asleep...why do I keep waking up at 3 in the morning. Yesterday I was blessed with a horrible headache which probably had to do with my lack of sleep lately....and thats just not much fun trying to take care of kiddos while your head is throbbing!!!! I dont have one today...or at least not yet (knocking on wood) but man am I tired!!!

Toons 4 Tuesday

*you know thats funny..hehe*

2 hours and 45 minutes.......

If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes taking a nap..Id feel well rested
If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes watching a good movie..Id think that was worth it
If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes talking with an old friend...Id feel like we got caught up on things
If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes playing with my nephew..Id be happy inside
If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes with my older boys who are away to college...Id be thankful for every minute
If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes cleaning my house..Id feel like something finally got accomplished around here!
If I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes getting my grove on with my Joshy...Id feel like ok well I wont go there

BUT instead I spent 2 hours and 45 minutes in WALMART waiting for their tire and lube guys to put ONE I repeat ONE new tire on our Grand am....this is by far one of the most ridiculous things I think we have experienced...this is what these guys do every day...after all this is their JOB....oh and it gets better...after about an hour and a half one of the guys say to Josh I dont think this is going to work..Josh asked why and so the guy takes Josh out to the garage area and proceeds to fumble thru what ever it was he was trying to say when Josh noticed they actually had the wrong tire ...I repeat the WRONG tire for our car...they had not tried putting it on yet...I have no idea what they had been doing for the last hour and a half...I should tell you their was only one car in front of us when we got there and they were just getting done with it so the wait wasnt for another vehicle...this was for our vehicle!!!! So anyway by this time Josh is livid and I cant say I blame him....I'm tired and I have spent way too much time in Walmart already...after all I had already been there before doing my shopping!!!! So they were suppose to actually rotate two of the tires but by this time Josh is just done and tells them to put the damn RIGHT tire on and be done!!! So finally 2 hours and 45 minutes after we showed up there we are finally driving away with ONE new tire!!! We actually need to get all new tires but for our little car the cheapest tire you can get is $115 and right before Christmas that's just not going to happen...so we replaced the one that was starting to split and will make do with the others for now...and God forbid we have to go back there to replace the other 3 after Christmas!!!! Can you imagine..we might as well put up a tent and blow up some air mattresses and just camp out!!!

Music 4 Monday

Ok lets be honest girls...how many of us copied that look??


* I know I did...I even used to practice her moves until I got them down pat*

Favorite 4 my Friday

My favorite for today is...my "Joshy"

We've been together for almost 3 years now..and it certainly hasn't always been easy. We were pretty much complete opposites, who had both been thru horrible marriages and had major scars from them. It most definitely didnt make for a good way to start out in a relationship, but here we are 3 years later and we both have grown and learned so much from each other. I wouldn't change a thing. I truly feel in my heart that he was meant to find me and that we are meant to be together. Now if you would of asked me that 3 years ago or even 2 years ago I wouldn't of had the same response. But I honestly feel that way now and thats why he is my favorite.....I thank him for being so patient with me...I had been in 2 abusive marriages before he came into my life and so trust was not something that came easy for me...but he stood by my side and was determined to show me that I could trust him..and I will be forever grateful for that. For him he had to deal with alot in his past too but one thing that hurt him bad was being cheated on..so I had to show him that he could trust and believe in me...like I said it wasnt an easy road for us but we traveled it and we are now on the road of happiness..sure we hit bumps along the way, but its how we handle those bumps now that makes all the difference in the world.

Everyday I get more afraid
Of giving my heart away
Scared of what love will bring
Too nervous to hear the words you’ll say
I find myself lost in you
Not sure if I want to be
I see the looks that you give
And wonder what you see in me
I don’t want my heart broken
But I am so in love
I can’t seem to give up
A guy sent from above
So I’m gonna trust you
Please don’t let me down
For I am giving you a chance
To turn my life around
Don’t take it for granted
‘Cause it might not last long
I have weak thoughts
And my heart isn’t too strong
I’m putting my life in your hands
Now it’s all up to you
I look forward to the places we go
And the things we’ll be put through
But remember that I’m vulnerable
And I can’t stand to be hurt
I want to be at the top of your list
But I don’t have to be first
Believe me when I tell you
That I love you with all my heart
That I’m here for you forever and always
Just like I was at the start.

Light your candles tonight in memory of ALL babies gone too soon!!!

There are so many of us that have experienced the loss of a baby whether it was due to still born, miscarriage, or some other reason. On October 17th 2007 I should of had a beautiful addition to our family...but I lost it due to a miscarriage months before.

Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day is to promote Support, Education and Awareness for grieving parents worldwide.

Too many families grieve in silence, sometimes never coming to terms with their loss. Their goal is to help families live with their loss, not "get over" their loss.

Thought 4 Thursday

There may be days
when you get up in the morning
and things aren't the way
you had hoped they would be.

~

That's when you have to
tell yourself that things will get better.
There are times when people
disappoint you and let you down.

~

But those are the times
when you must remind yourself
to trust your own judgments and opinions,
to keep your life focused on believing in yourself.

~

There will be challenges to face
and changes to make in your life,
and it is up to you to accept them.

~

Constantly keep yourself headed
in the right direction for you.
It may not be easy at times,
but in those times of struggle
you will find a stronger sense of who you are.

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So when the days come that are filled
with frustration and unexpected responsibilities,
remember to believe in yourself
and all you want your life to be.

~

Because the challenges and changes
will only help you to find the goals
that you know are meant to come true for you.

~

Keep Believing in You!

What about me 4 Wednesday

“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am me, and I am Okay.”

*this is a Virginia Satir quote...and I think its awesome...
it wraps it up for all of us don't you think?*

Where did Fall go???

This is what we woke up to on Saturday morning!!!! We got a good 3 inches of snow ....and my middle son that lives 50 miles to the west of us got over a foot of snow!!!! I don't know what is up with mother nature...but I sure would have like to of enjoyed some of the Fall season before the snow made its appearance!!!

Music 4 Monday

I'm in the mood for some Goo Goo Dolls!!!!

Reflection.....

It is not so much the example of others we imitate as the reflection of ourselves in their eyes and the echo of ourselves in their words.
~Eric Hoffer~

Each of us is here for a brief sojourn; for what purpose he knows not, though he senses it. But without deeper reflection one knows from daily life that one exists for other people.
~Albert Einstein~

Knowing others is wisdom, knowing yourself is enlightenment.
~Lao Tzu~

Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.
~George Bernard Shaw~

Look within!... The secret is inside you
~Hui-neng~

Most true happiness comes from one's inner life, from the disposition of the mind and soul. Admittedly, a good inner life is difficult to achieve, especially in these trying times. It takes reflection and contemplation and self-discipline.
~William L Shirer~

One of the greatest moments in anybody's developing experience is when he no longer tries to hide from himself but determines to get acquainted with himself as he really is.
~Norman Vincent Peale~

Seeing within changes one's outer vision.
~Joseph Chilton Pearce~

The only service a friend can really render is to keep up your courage by holding up to you a mirror in which you can see a noble image of yourself.
~George Bernard Shaw~

The stories of past courage... can offer hope, they can provide inspiration. But they cannot supply courage itself. For this each man must look into his own soul
~John F. Kennedy~

The world is a looking glass and gives back to every man the reflection of his own face.
~William M. Thackeray~

I think its important for each one of us to be someone that when we look at our self in the mirror we are proud of the person looking back at us
~DENA~

Life is hard and sometimes it feels like it hands us more than we can handle..but in the end every thing we go thru is a learning experience sometimes we walk away learning more about someone else and sometimes the learning experience is for our self. We can find strength in ourselves at times we didn't think we had any at all.......in the world we live in where every time you turn on your tv or pick up a newspaper it is filled with all the bad that's going on around us its important for us to find some good...and that starts by looking at our self and asking do I like what I see? Do I like me? The person I am? What can I do to make a difference in someones life..maybe its your own life or maybe its someone you know , maybe its the person standing on the street corner feeling like he's got nothing to live for, and a simple smile and a hello could make all the difference. So look at your reflection and ask yourself do I like that person looking back at me...if not the only person that can change that is YOU!

Favorite 4 Friday

Being from Nebraska we dont have alot in the way of BIG sports to be a fan of from our state...not like alot of the the other states who have Pro football..baseball...basketball and such so for those of us living in the Cornhusker state...our HUSKER football is kind of a big deal...and Im sure most of you know we have had a few bad years lately....but we are starting to get a glimpse of hope for ours guys once again...and last nights game was a big win for us...we played Mizzou(Missouri) and we won...after last years game where they stomped us to the ground we really needed this!!! So my FAVORITE for this Friday is the score of last nights game

27 - 12

GO HUSKERS!!!!