Music 4 my Monday

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Our store

I want to tell all of you about our online store...we were doing the online auction thing for awhile but got tired of all the fees associated with it. So we decided a few months back to just open up our own online store away from the auction sites and see how we would do. It actually has been doing pretty good, its been slow but we have made sales and hope that things pick up as it gets closer to Christmas time. Anyway I decided to let it out to all of you about our store. Please bookmark us because we add items every week,we actually just had some more products become available to us so we will be adding those in the next few days, we also offer different promotions to keep you wanting to come back to shop with us over and over again!!

Question 4 you?!?!

Which of your 5 senses (hearing, smelling, tasting, seeing, feeling) would you be willing to give up if you had to??


Id pick smelling...though there would be those things I would miss the smell of I think that would be the easiest thing to live without!

Favorite 4 my Friday

Today I do not have to work....and with it being a Friday that makes it even better!!! I've had one of those weeks....you know the oldest is off in Germany which is hard on me, as I wait for the phone to ring so I can just hear his voice, and of course it rings but its never him on the other end....and my youngest has been home sick , today being the 3rd day, with an upper respiratory infection, so hes now on antibiotics and codeine cough medicine...and this is only the 2nd week of school...Im sure hoping this isn't a sign of whats to come..he tends to get sick easy when subjected to germs like whats always going around at school!!! But Im not going to let any of that bring me down... Today Im going to get my hair cut and highlighted then come home and make this day off a nice relaxing day off...so thats my favorite for today.....
A BIG FAT DAY OFF...AND IM ACTUALLY DOING SOMETHING FOR ME!!!!
(that like NEVER happens....but maybe I should start making a habit of it!)

What about me 4 Wednesday

Ever just have those moments in life where you just feel like every waking moment you are doing for everyone else and never doing anything just for yourself??? Im a very unselfish person...and most of the time Im perfectly fine with that. I have many titles...as most of us moms do...mom, girlfriend, daughter,friend, sister, aunt, taxi driver, cheerleader, nurse, maid...ect. Im counted on to fix the problems, help with the homework, cheer at the games, fix the boo-boos , make sure everything is done when and how its suppose to be done. Like I said on a normal basis I dont mind doing all these things..I actually just do them and dont think twice about it. But once in awhile I have days like today where I just feel like...hello??? Is anyone out there...does anyone see that Im tired?? That I've just been go..go..go, does anyone see that I feel like Im falling apart right now??? I think that everyone gets so used to me being the one they turn to, they lean on, that they forget that once in awhile I need to lean too!! Once in awhile I just dont feel like solving the problems, once in awhile I dont feel like washing those clothes, after all they will still be there tomorrow, and once in awhile I just dont feel like turning on the tv to hear about all the horrible things that are going on in this world. Once in awhile I just feel like running around saying "WHAT ABOUT ME??" Does that make me selfish? does it make me sound bad??? I dont know but right now I just dont really care about all of that...now tomorrow I will probably feel really bad for thinking this way let alone writing it for everyone to see!!!

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Toon 4 Tuesday

Question 4 you ?!?!

If you had to be trapped in a TV show for a month, which show would you choose?

Music 4 my Monday

This is not the typical kind of music I listen to...but I ran across this and thought it had a catchy little tune and a good message.....and its just what ya need to get your MONDAY started off right!!

I WON!!!

My wonderful bloggy friend IZZY had a contest for a piece of her jewelry from her awesome Etsy shop and I was one of the two lucky winners...of course if you go check out how many comments I left you will see I was REALLY wanting to be a winner!!! She has some super fantastic pieces and I will be for sure visiting her store to make some purchases in the future. Go check it out for yourself..you wont be disappointed!

Favorite 4 my Friday

Well my favorite for this Friday is of course my boys....if you have read my blog for any length of time then you know Im a VERY proud mom of three VERY awesome boys...and though I know some people get tired of moms writing about their kids...I look at it as this is my blog and I can write about anything I want to...and today its once again about my boys!!!!

Well he did it!!! He went from this:

To this:
He sent me a text last night and told me that he shaved finally and so I told him to send me a picture and this is what he sent me...I laughed my a$$ off because its only a half picture and it looks like a bad mug shot....he's a turd!!!! Now dont get me wrong I have nothing against facial hair but when it starts looking like you have an animal living on your chin its time to do something about it...so I was very happy to see that my Dakota once again is showin off that cute face..without the animal attached!!!

As for Devin he is settling back into the school routine....he's a big 5th grader...the "top dog" of the elementary!! We went last night and got him signed up for 5 & 6th grade tackle football...TACKLE...in the 5th grade oh good lord Im not ready for this....oh I love football and watched the older two play all thru jr high and high school...and Devin has been playing flag football the last couple of years..but this is my baby and hes only in the 5th grade and ....ITS TACKLE!!! ok mom stop.....im sure it will be fine....but man last night when he tried on his pads....I felt a little sad, scared, thinking omg time is just flying by!!! Anyway somehow I will survive this too and will be watching my baby from the side lines..praying he doesnt get hurt!!

And now for my Kody he is leaving tomorrow for Germany...We dont have any idea if we will be able to talk to each other at all while he is gone...and I know some can say its only for 3 1/2 weeks...but this is 3 1/2 weeks of my son being in another country!!! Yes I know its part of the "job" so to speak when you sign up for anything military....but I wasnt the one that was all excited about this in the first place. Yes Ive grown to accept it and yes Im thankful he isnt being called over to fight in a war ..but Im still nervous about him being so far away, and Im still sad not knowing if we will be able to talk while he is gone...I have a really good relationship with my boys and though the older two are away to college they stay in touch with mom ALOT...and I love that!!!! So my heart is a bit achy today knowing that this time tomorrow my koder is going to be far far away..and it will be 3 1/2 long weeks before I get to see him again!

Three Boys

I love them equally,
but not the same -
for each is different
in their own special way.

Everyday I thank God for
the blessings I've received
in having children
as wonderful as these.

*found this poem on the internet*

Thought 4 my Thursday

I see it all around.. there are just some people who find the need to make fun or others for anything and everything. I see it with the school age kids, the college kids, and grown adults. I do not understand why people feel it is their place to do this to another person. What do they gain from it, sure maybe a few people might join in with you, some may laugh, but others are thinking that you are being a real jerk!! Do people do this to take away from what they have going on..does it make them feel like a better person inside??? Honestly I can not see how that's possible but for whatever reasons there will always be those who find some kind of enjoyment in making fun of others...and that's what brings me to this thought for the day:

To speak ill of others is a dishonest way of praising ourselves ... let us be above such transparent egotism. -- Will Durant

What about me 4 Wednesday

I'm a simple person...I wear simple clothes like shorts and a t-shirt or jeans and a sweatshirt...flip flops or my Nike's. I do my own hair and make-up, my nails are my own..not fake. And one of my favorite pieces of jewelry is the bracelet that Devin made me 5 years ago when he was only 6. I still love wearing it and personally I think its FANTABULOUS!!!

~Bracelet from Devin~
(man my fingers look FAT in this pic!!..its just the pic..seriously!!)

I mean check this one out...it cost $25 million .........personally I find it just plain UGLY.....I'll stick with my "priceless" bracelet...it looks waaaaaaaay better!!!

Now thats a fly!!!!

Last night before Kody came home Josh and I were sitting out on the deck just talking about how our days went...when I looked on the side of the house and seen something big and black I asked Josh what the heck it was and he being the brave man he is went to investigate...it turned out to be the biggest fly either of us have ever seen....so of course I had to have him capture it so I can show everyone.....the pictures do not do it justice but you can obviously see its NOT your normal little house fly!!!! Have you ever seen a fly so HUGE before???????

My boys.....

Today is the first day of school..and my baby is in the 5th grade!!! I keep asking myself how did this happen??? Time is just flying by way too fast...I mean honestly this is the last year of elementary...and since I already have two kids in college I know all too well that once they hit Jr high the time REALLY flies by......man I hope the next 9 months go really slow!!!!! (look at his cheesy grin..he was talking at the same time I snapped the pic...isn't that how it always goes)



Last night Kody came home after work and had Josh's BBQ ribs with us....its one of Kodys favorites. It will be the last time I see him before he leaves Saturday to go to Germany..so of course I had to take some pics..took them with my phone and they didn't come out the best

Kody showin some brotherly love to Devin
(sorry its so dark)

We look dorky as hell but thats ok....we are dorky..hehe

Im so proud of him and the choices hes made with his life...but it certainly doesn't make knowing hes going to be so far away for the next 3 1/2 weeks any easier on me



And since Im doing a post about my sons I certainly can not leave out my Dakota....the other day when we went to see him over where he is going to college at...he decided it would be funny to show me just how "red-neck" he can be and this is what I got to see

I would like it to be known my son does not go around dressed this way...they had a "red neck" party the night before and he wanted me to see how he went...frikkin hilarious I must say....now as for the beard thats all his...I keep calling him my caveman..hehe I have not figured out why such a good lookin guy wants to have that animal on his face...Im hoping its some weird phase hes going thru and it passes soon!!!!



Yep thats my boys...they keep me on my toes and sometimes make
me wanna be incognito!!hehe

But I love them with all my heart and I wouldn't change a thing about any of them....ok other then Id really love to get that thing off of Dakotas face!!! hehe

anxiety and the week-end

Last week I blogged about my anxiety...theres a couple people on here that are my friends away from bloggyland...and they know that what I suffer with is real. I realize that alot of you that read my blog was surprised by it and didnt think that side of me showed in my post. In a way that actually made me feel really good inside. If you do not suffer from something that is so debilitating then you do not understand what it does to a person physically and emotionally. One thing about starting my blog (which is something Josh wanted me to do) It allows me to say what Im thinking or feeling and I dont have to go thru the massive anxiety I would if I was trying to say the same things to you face to face..or even over the phone. So knowing that if even for a few minutes I write something and I get to come across as being "normal" that makes me smile inside. This week-end Josh took Devin and I away on a little vacation so to speak...we only went a couple hundred miles away but we got to see some really cool things and get all of Devins school shopping done at the same time. It felt really good to just get away from here. I spend every day at home, I babysit from my home so getting away is nice once in awhile. Now you might wonder how if I have such massive anxiety can I do this and actually enjoy myself....its because of Josh. He never really leaves my side so that when we go into places I dont have to feel so nervous. He holds my hand or wraps his arm around me and instantly I feel safe and secure. We went to a museum, a drive thru wildlife safari, and a childrens zoo.(will post pics later) It all was wonderful!!! We went out to eat, not just fast food on the run ( I had moments of bad anxiety I sometimes feel sudden burst of feeling uncomfortable eating around a bunch of people) but with Josh and Devin there they helped bring me back down and relax enough to realize Id be ok. Trust me living with this IS NOT FUN. The feeling of a sick stomach and the sudden feeling of not being able to breath because your heart is beating so fast certainly is not enjoyable.....when you start shaking so bad that it looks like to others you have something wrong with you only makes the anxiety kick into higher gear.......but every day I try harder and harder to get thru it. And when I do I take a deep breath and say to myself..."you did it Dena" and pray that one day it will actually become easier to get thru each and every day ahead of me.

Music 4 my Monday

I love this song...and love that at the end of the video they dedicate it to all the men and women serving our country....my oldest son is in the National Guard and is leaving Saturday to go to Germany for 3 1/2 weeks...so I thought this song was a good pick for my Monday

My daily fight

Sometimes there is more to a person then just what you see on the outside...a person that you think might be rude or a bitch might actually have something else going on.................like me....
I suffer from "social anxiety" it is a torturous emotional problem that most people do not understand. It includes intense fear, a racing heart,blushing,excessive sweating, dry throat and mouth, trembling, swallowing with difficulty, and muscle twitches, and in my case sometimes uncontrollable crying, and bad headaches. People with social anxiety disorder know that their anxiety is irrational and does not make "head" sense. Nevertheless, "knowing" something is never the same thing as "believing" and "feeling" something. People with social anxiety, thoughts and feelings of anxiety persist and show no signs of going away despite the fact that socially-anxious people "face their fears" every day of their lives. Social anxiety disorder compared to some of the other disorders can seem kind of boring..it doesnt have "strange" elements that are visible to others. A person with social anxiety disorder usually shrinks into the background and is not heard. Even professionals typically do not understand what the socially-anxious person is living with, they prescribe a few relaxation techniques, some medication, and tell the person that they are really "OK".
This is highly debilitating for people with social anxiety. It reinforces the fact that you have a horrible, life-restricting disorder that causes extreme anxiety in social situations, AND NO ONE CAN EVEN UNDERSTAND IT, let alone help you. You start feeling like you are the only one in the world that has this disease, that you are a freak, or just weird. You look around and it doesnt seem like anyone else is going thru this or at least not anyone you know. Its hard to find yourself even walking down your own street alone for the fear people might be looking at you and judging you, or even that you might run into someone and then you are forced to say hello, your voice will crack and then they will sense your weak or afraid..and you dont want anyone to know that about you. You find fear in going to the grocery store alone..even though its in the small town that you grew up in...its the fear of people staring at you or again making eye contact and being forced to talk to someone. The fear of doing or saying something to make a fool of yourself. Theres the fear of picking up the phone and making that phone call..even though they cant see you, it doesnt matter, home becomes the only place you feel comfortable. The socially anxious person can’t relax, "take it easy", and enjoy themselves in public. In fact, they rarely relax when other people are around. It always feels like others are evaluating them, being critical of them, or "judging" them in some way. The person with social anxiety knows that people don’t do this openly, of course, but they still feel the self-consciousness and the judgment while they are in the other person’s presence. It’s sometimes impossible to let go, relax, and focus on anything else except the anxiety. Because the anxiety is so very painful, it’s much easier just to stay away from social situations and avoid other people.THIS is what I live with each and every day of my life....my friends, my family, my boyfriend...no one understands it...sure they deal with it because this is how I have always been....but they dont understand it and probably never will. Im a good person, have a good heart, always put others first, will do anything I can to help others out, but dealing with this all my life makes it so sometimes I really hate being me.

Shaking hands and swirling thoughts

Here comes anxiety ready or not

Gasp for air and try to hide

Cant let them see me break inside

Swallow and breath I want to be free

This is my daily fight with anxiety

*found this poem online*

*even posting this has made my anxiety go thru the roof*

Thought 4 Thursday

" The biggest mistake you can make in life is to be continually afraid of making one."

Wacky Invention that makes sense

I can not stand it when I'm at the grocery store, gas station, the mall, restaurant where ever I may be and there has to be someone on their phone having a conversation loud enough that we all can hear it....Ive heard people fighting, being flirty, coming up with party plans, hashing over the plans for dinner.....yelling at their kids....you name it Ive heard it. I think this is the perfect idea for those people who find it necessary to talk so loud that we all become a part of their conversation...I mean honestly people I have enough drama in my life I don't need yours too!!!!

He's back....

Thats my boy....or I guess hes a man now...but to me hes always going to be my boy...my oldest....my Koder.....thank you to everyone that left sweet messages, and emails for me and keeping him in your prayers....they had to get qualified with the .50 cal for their trip to Germany thats coming up....then he will be gone for 3 weeks...in GERMANY...FAR AWAY FROM MOM!!! YES Im very attached to my boys and NO I do not like it when they are far away!!! UGH I cant think about that right now!!! anyway I love his oh so serious look on his face..hehe hes a bad ass!!!! Now check out this picture:

How bad ass is that playing Guitar Hero in your uniform hehe

we had Guitar Hero competitions going on the rest of the night...even the neighbor boy came over and brought his guitar....

Devin and the neighbor boy Maddux playin us some tunes!!

Look what came to town

Last night Josh and I was running some errands and we saw this pull into our little town...its the Oscar Mayer Wienermobile

It was so exciting to see something like this in our small town...thank goodness I had my phone on me so I could snap a picture as we drove by it..because we drove home to get Devin and the neighbor kid to take them over to see it and as fast as it pulled into town it was gone!

Toons 4 my Tuesday

What is your stripper name???

Heres mine!!!!!! Now go see what yours is..then come back and leave a
comment and share it with us!!!

My Stripper Name is


Cinnamon PassionSparkle



Get your Stripper Name at Quizopolis.com

Music 4 my Monday

Madonna - New Music - More Music Videos

ahhhhhh!!!

Last night my oldest son, Kody called and said that he had just recieved orders to be ready at 7:30 in the morning to leave...he is a part of the National Guard and even though I've heard it be said that its the government and if they want you they want you now...but I never really knew it was going to actually be that way. I mean Kody wasn't even given enough time to notify his work days in advance to let them know he wouldnt be there again until Tuesday of next week. So all I know is that my Koder is on I-80 heading towards a range in Wyoming in one of these:

An Armored Humvee

To shoot some of these:(the BIG one)


Out of one of these!!!



No Im not nervous at all!!!!!!!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhh

Favorite 4 My Friday

One of my favorite things is when someone else wants to do the cooking..or baking. Although I enjoy baking not so much cooking...and of course I really enjoy the eating part!! Well the other day my youngest decided he wanted to try making some brownies....well of course I had to let him do it! Lets just say I feel so lucky...I have Josh who loves to cook so I dont have to do it very often...and now Devin is wanting to bake, AND he wants to make chocolate things...
oooooh yes life is good!!!!

Look he's not even making a mess!



Hey take those off before you go licking them!



Oh yes a chocolate delight!!! YUMMY!!

Thought 4 My Thursday

The hardest challenge is to be yourself in a world where everyone is trying to make you be somebody else. -- E. E. Cummings

MERMAID OR A WHALE?

I got this in an email and I thought it was so cute I had to share it...so to all my fellow "whale" friends out there...we have nothing to be worried about anymore!!!

Recently, in a large French city, a poster featuring a young, thin and tan woman appeared in the window of a gym. It said:

THIS SUMMER DO YOU WANT TO BE A MERMAID OR A WHALE?

A middle aged woman, whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym.

To Whom It May Concern:

Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea lions, curious humans). They have an active sex life, they get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins stuffing themselves with shrimp. They play and swim in the seas, seeing wonderful places like Patagonia, the Bering Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia. Whales are wonderful singers and have even recorded CDs. They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans. They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in the world.

Mermaids don't exist. If they did exist, they would be lining up outside the offices of Argentinean psychoanalysts due to identity crisis. Fish or human? They don't have a sex life because they kill men who get close to them not to mention how could they have sex? Therefore they don't have kids either. Not to mention who wants to get close to a girl who's skin is all scaly and smells like a fish store?

The choice is perfectly clear to me... I want to be a whale.

P.S. We are in an age when media puts into our heads the idea that only skinny people are beautiful, but I prefer to enjoy an ice cream with my grandkids, a good dinner with a man who makes me shiver and a latte with my friends. With time, we gain weight because we accumulate so much information and wisdom in our heads that when there is no more room, it distributes out to the rest of our bodies. So we aren't heavy, we are enormously cultured, educated and happy. Beginning today, when I look at my butt in the mirror I will think, "Good gosh, look how smart I am"!

Question for you?!?!

If you had to name the one thing about your life right now that you would
NOT change what would it be?

Toons 4 my Tuesday

I've been in a mood lately and this cartoon is just perfect!
Stupid people make me crazy!!

Music 4 My Monday

Since my good ole bloggin buddy Meeko looks forward to my music on Mondays Im posting this for you...Meeko...and since Im a BIG Nickelback fan ....here ya go!

one of those days

I'm having one of those days that I just cant think of a thing to write about...I feel like I have so much going on and yet none of it is worth talking about....I'm finding myself extremely stressed out and feeling sad inside...yet trying to pretend that all is fine. I suffer from anxiety and that doesn't help me out any at times like this.....I sometimes feel like those around me do not understand my anxiety they just accept its there and tell me that everything will be fine....that doesn't really help either. Anyway I will try to get in a better mood and come up with something to write about tomorrow....maybe tomorrow will be a better day.

~I definitely need some of this~